Mistaken beliefs about a Rheumatoid Arthritis blog?
An RA blog does not cure everything
A crazy thing happened to me this weekend:
Saturday had me heading out twice to my two sons’ football games. While I was home for a while in between games, I was checking emails and replying to blog comments and tweets. That makes what happened even crazier…
While I was at the football games, I was stiff and hurting. I kept wanting to lie down on the bleachers. Here’s an example of my train of thought: No one understands. Will I have a fever for the rest of my life? How can I ever make it through this ball game?
At one point, I was walking to my car and my mind wandered to thoughts of what could be done until this thought came into my mind: I ought to start a blog. I entertained the thought for about a second. Of course, I have already tried that. I wonder whether the 20 days of fever are starting to affect my brain.
A Rheumatoid Arthritis blog does not fix anything
When Rheumatoid Arthritis attacked my feet, people would ask, “How are your feet?” Within a couple of weeks, I was answering like this, “Well, something’s happened to my knees, too, now…” Stop.
Right there is where it changes. There is a look of skepticism. And then there is obvious doubt.
I have been through this dozens of times. There are neighbors and church members and even family who seem unsure that Rheumatoid Arthritis is a bona fide illness or that it is half as bad as I say it is. I used to fantasize that writing a blog about Rheumatoid Arthritis would help me to communicate RA information in a way that would change their minds. I daydreamed that it would make a difference.
However, writing a blog does not cure this problem. Not much has changed: I still get those looks. Some people still avoid discussions of Rheumatoid Arthritis. I still suffer silently. And, apparently, I still daydream about starting an RA blog.
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Thanks for posting this! I know exactly where u r coming from!
you do not suffer silently. Your voice is being heard. I hear it
“You’ve made a difference to me, too.
I know it’s hard not to be discouraged. Your blog may never help people completely understand, but it CAN help share compassion with others who suffer and give you a way to vent and receive encouragement from those who DO understand! Hang in there.”
“ahhhh, your blogs have made a difference to me…”
Hope you start to feel better soon. Don’t worry, I know exactly how you feel! Rest up!!
I’m right there with ya! I give up on anyone ever understanding it…It’s never gonna happen unless you have it yourself.
You know how it’s changed my life! For that I thank you a million times! I send love and hope to you and lots of encouragement. Maybe it will be stronger since I’m in Ft. Lauderdale right now. Big hugs! Hang in there, this won’t last forever!!
I can relate. Sometimes, I feel like its my RA and me against the world.
Lots of people “out there” still don’t understand… And lots of us suffer silently (well, sometimes silently, sometimes not-so-silently
).
But –
You may not “see” it, because we are a community tied together by keyboards and screens, but A LOT has changed.
Thanks to your blog and those of other warriors, we know some VERY important things:
1) We are not ALONE. (And please try to remember, you are not alone either. We may be separated by miles, but we are HERE for you, too!)
2) Our pain is REAL; our symptoms are real; we are not crazy. We do not need to minimize or apologize for these truths.
3) You bring us vital, timely information that probably keeps us more informed and up-to-date than many (most?) rheumatologists.
4) We can go to our rheumatologist appointments encouraged, strengthened, and better prepared to communicate about our status and treatment options.
5) In our relationships with those who don’t “get it”, some of us may remain silent, yet AFFIRMED by the encouragement you bring us. Others may become more bold and be our own vocal advocates in certain situations, armed with the information and strength you and other warriors provide.
6) Some of your readers do not have RA and your blog gives them insight and empathy they would not otherwise have.
Some people will never understand. But thanks to you and other warriors, MANY, MANY more people learn the truths about RA and how extensively our lives are affected.
Kelly, I have no idea how many hours of your time you have invested in your blog. But I DO have some idea of the fruit it bears. Thank you!!
Why, right now, I even have a picture in my mind, of some rheumatologist somewhere, secretly in a darkened room, lit only by the glow of her monitor, scouring your website so she can gain more insight and understanding. You never know…
Oh Caysea!!!
You have given us the best laugh in weeks with the “darkened room lit by the monitor…” etc. Thank you so much for that. Hope you aren’t right; but I have seen some docs who could learn a lot from RA blogs…
I know exactly how you feel. My mom (who also has RA) and I were talking about it the other day. The look that gets me the most is those people who judge me for having a handicap parking permit when I pull up to the spot. I’ve learned to try and laugh about it but it’s not always that easy. Keep up the great work though – you are helping!
You are making a difference. Each person you connect with fans out to others. Because of you, I have courage to speak and be heard, and my children and other members of my family are spreading the word. I think there will always be doubters and others who just don’t want to deal with it or hear about it. I just tend to kick them to the curb and concentrate on the people who will hear me.
Your courage to post your most personal struggle is blessing to all of us. I also know that being in pain like that is such a scary thing. When I’m in pain like that, it’s very hard for me to stop my negative thinking cycle. This blog help me to know that I’m not alone. Take care,
With love, Aiko
You have made a huge difference in our lives and as far as the rest of them…it will certainly take time. I tell people as much as they will listen to about RA, and a lot of it I learned here. Yes, I get the blank stares, even from my brothers when I told them. It’s just ignorance. We are here for you as best we can be, hang in there Kelly. You are a warrior!
Hey Kelly, you don’t suffer silently. When you hurt, we all hurt … when you are feeling good, we all smile. You make a tremendous impact on people’s lives.
I agree 100% with Noelle, for the skeptics and doubters, who needs these people around. If they feel this way, they aren’t real friends anyway.
It is so ironic that you write about football games and bleachers. I have spent the last week in bed with flared up hips from going to a band competition where I had to walk for a long way and then sit in bleachers for several hours. My hips flared up, I feel like I am walking with bone rubbing bone. Prior to that I was feeling fairly well. Sometimes the least little thing will cause the worst flare. No matter what anybody says, this is a nasty disease!!!!
I totally understand. It’s a bully of a disease and since we aren’t bleeding from an orifice loved ones have a hard time understanding. I can’t tell you the number of times I’ve been told – “You don’t look sick.”
ALL of ya’ll:
thank you for encouraging me to keep going. It does help me too.
Tharr: no, they are not true friends, are they? And I know they’ll not read this…
Jane: this is the part that it seems no one gets UNLESS they have RA…
Kathy: “bleeding from an oriface…” haha. Thanks for the laugh. If only “You don’t look sick” were true.
Kelly,
Even if no one read your wonderful blogs, it would be okay because you write them to get out the emotional pain that would be buried and making you more sick. Blogs are not only informative and good for sharing information, but they are a healthy way to express issues that would otherwise eat your soul and cause more stress. I blog too, and I do it for my health. I don’t care who reads it, as long as I have a place to get rid of negative baggage that would otherwise do me harm. That it may help others understand and know they are not alone is a benefit! Keep blogging, because some day there will be doctors that use these blogs to learn more about how not to dismiss a patient, and learn a more productive bedside manner. This is a form of educating and is, I believe, important to the future of our changing medical community.
Wow, Michelle.
“… some day there will be doctors that use these blogs to learn more about how not to dismiss a patient, and learn a more productive bedside manner. This is a form of educating and is, I believe, important to the future of our changing medical community” That is my fondest hope!
The other point is also good of course.
Also Michelle, you can make your name on here a link to your own blog if you put in the url. Then we can have a quick way to look up what you are up to…
Ok, I put in my url for my blog sight.
I started getting it setup and have only a short description of what I will be writing about but I used to blog on myspace for friends and realized that it was too confining. I have a tendency to get on my soapbox when I see injustices and love to bring out issues that will cause people to really think about their lives and hopefully help them to see the ability they have to make changes and be happier. So, here go I on my grand adventure of blogging. I hope that I can educate and also give everyone a good chuckle now and then. I have to warn you that I can be unconventional and am not afraid to ask the questions that others may be afraid to ask. We will see what happens,cause I love a good adventure!